Jaxon Lee Lofty 11/28/11

Well folks, I am a mommy of 5!  On Monday, November 28, 2011, Jason and I woke up the kids  at 4 AM and headed to my Mamaw's where we dropped off the four kiddos to hang out until baby Jaxon arrived.  They were so excited and I cried as we left them because I knew very soon how things were going to be so different with a new baby in the house.  We arrived at ParkRidge East ( BEST EXPERIENCE EVER) , while Jason parked the car, I checked in through the Emergency Room and got my papers and admission bracelet and we made our way to labor and delivery.  I was soooo nervous and I could tell he was too, then he took my hand.  I then felt safe and secure and I knew that I had my best friend right beside me, and that God was definitely with us.  We were greeted by the nurses, led to our room and got hooked up to the monitor and asked a dozen questions and before I knew it, the IV was started, I was given this yucky stuff to drink and anesthesia came in to discuss the spinal (can you say HEAVEN).  Then Dr. Brown came and made small talk.  They took me back and had Jason wait....

I remember the spinal not hurting at all, I remember laying down and letting the warmth overtake my body and being draped and remember seeing Jason walk in, in his surgical garb and thinking...Is this really it?  Jason held my hand and the doctors began the csection and at 7:53 AM Jaxon Lee entered this world and the docs asked Jason to stand and look at his boy, the only baby I could give him.   I told him to go to the baby, that I would be ok....It seemed like forever that the doctors kept working on me....I heard I can't get this bleeding stopped....and are you ok....from the anesthesiologist....they kept giving me medicines through my IV.  Jason and I got to see Jaxon for 1 minute before they whisked him off to the nursery because he was having trouble breathing.  I told Jason to go be with Jaxon, but he never left my side in the OR.

Then the words that I knew would change my outlook and make me so SAD.  We are ready to start the tubal ligation.  I had so many mixed feelings about this.  I know what God says about being fruitful and multiplying, but I also knew what my body had been through in the past 9 months.  I am truly am saddened that I can never carry another baby in my womb, it really breaks my heart.  But on the other hand, I do want to see the five children I have been blessed with, grow up, graduate, go to college, get married and have babies of their own.  I want to be here for them now, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.  In order to do that, I had to protect my life.

Jaxon Lee Lofty, a true miracle from God!  If I had never believed in God, this little angel would have opened my eyes for sure.  But I can say that if it weren't for my faith in God, I would have never made it through this year.

Around 9:45 I was wheeled to the recovery room, and was pressed on and monitored and finally got some ice chips.  SOOO hungry.  They even allowed visitors, more than they should because it was a light day there in the delivery area, I think there was me and 1 other mom.  Finally, after 3 of the longest hours of my life, I was wheeled to the nursery window to see my little guy.  I hadn't got to touch him or hold him....and I just cried as I touched the window.  Now I am really surprised by this time that I hadn't barfed due to all the meds I had been given.  They finally got me to a room, got me settled and guess what, instant exorcist projectile vomit.  It came out of nowhere.  They got me settled and finally brought me my baby.  I just sat and held him and cried (wow postpartum tears a plenty).

Day 2:  11/29/11   Jaxon's bilirubin levels were too high so he had to be placed under the bili lights and we made the decision to keep him in the room and place him in the nursery at night so he could get intensive treatment so hopefully Wednesday his levels would go down enough so we could take him home.

Day 3:  11/30/11  We were discharged around 12:30 PM, Jaxon's levels were very low and doctor felt confident to send him home.  Wow, a csection and a tubal....not a good idea to do both at the same time....PAINFUL!!!!  Missing our other babies, glad to be going home.


LOVING LIFE with our 4 guys and a girl!  Life is beautiful!